Life can be brutal. Like you, I have experienced many highs and many lows. It’s strange, though, that the lows always seem to leave a mark. I’d rather remember the good times; the Happiness. But I realize it must be a conscious choice. You must choose to remember the good times and the happiness.
Darkness lurks in the void waiting for your most vulnerable moments to remind you that you are not good enough, you are not strong enough, you are not beautiful enough, you are not smart enough, you will always be fat and so on.
So here, I’m posting my favourite poem. It is the best I have ever read (that I felt it was speaking to me). It was penned by William Ernest Henley in his book “Book of Verses”. The title “Invictus”. The word is derived from Latin and it translates as “Unconquered/unconquerable”.
Like you, I have faced numerous trials in my life, and sadly, I will continue coming up against new battles for the remainder of my time here on earth. But I believe sincerely in my heart that there is no problem that is placed before me that I have not been equipped to handle. Those problems may batter me mentally, drain me emotionally and wither my body. But I choose to be positive. All the scars may never heal, but with time, I will make peace with my mind. As Friedrich Nietzsche once said, “To live is to suffer; to survive, is to find some form of meaning in the suffering”. I will survive. You will survive.
Here is the poem:
For my unconquerable soul.
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
I am the captain of my soul.
This is great penmanship. The author captured the spirit of an embattled man who realized he had a sense of control over his life. When people start wondering whether other people care about them, they give away their power; their sense of control. Love has to come from within, not sought from without. You have to choose the attitude you will have in that negative situation and try to search for the meaning or the lesson you have to learn. Unfortunately, it is always painful.
But that is life. We must not lose hope.
Life will continue battering you with different kinds of problems. I believe we can face anything if we realize we control our attitude, feelings and our choices. You are the master of your fate, the captain of your soul!